“How are you?”
It seemed like a simple enough question. If nothing else, it’s a familiar one. How many times a day do we repeat those three words? To friends, coworkers, even strangers on the street.
I knew the easy response. And I knew that’s all she expected. But it stuck in my throat. Instead, I replied honestly, “I’m not really sure how to answer that question right now.”
This morning Facebook informed me that you, my readers, were waiting and longing to hear from me. While I’m relatively certain you lead quite full lives without updates on my Facebook page, I appreciated the reminder that you are there. So I wanted to touch base with you all and tell you how I am. And the answer is… I’m not really sure how to answer that question right now.
A few months ago I asked some friends to proofread a post for me, one on being bold and confident. I told them how much I was enjoying this new season, one that was not marked by writings on chronic illness or faith in the midst of hard times or overcoming, but full of joy and confidence. A few months ago I began planning the book proposal I wanted to write this school year, because life was settling down. A few months ago I put together a big plan for my blog, reshaping my contributor obligations to fit with my niche, planning a revamp of my site, preparing to release my first ebook this Christmas.
And then came September.
In the past two months, we have taken several hits in our home. As I mentioned before, not all of them are mine to share. But I will tell you that we have been affected on multiple fronts, and it has been a hard fall. The boldness and confidence in my writing just a short time ago has been replaced with… well, nothing. My words feel non-existent, not to mention my time.
So I don’t really KNOW how I am. I don’t know what my plan is for the blog or the book or much of anything, really. I just know that I am going to keep putting one foot in front of the other and walking this journey. I would love for you to join me, as sporadic as it may be. Because one thing I know: God does not waste our pain. He has a plan for every last tear. He is leading and guiding every step of the way. And I’d love to share with you what we are learning as we go.
“Therefore we do not lost heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” –2 Corinthians 4:16-18